SHITZ @ GIGGLEZ - 2-19-16

     SHITZ @ GIGGLEZ, And away we go go go !!!

  " WHAT STARTS BITTER, ENDS SWEET. WHAT STARTS SWEET, ENDS BITTER". 

  Quoting a line from the movie ROCK n ROLLA. Written @ directed by the great Guy Ritchie. This dude makes the coolest movies of all-time ! SNATCH, SHERLOCK HOLMES - GAME OF SHADOWS, @ ROCK n ROLLA, are films not to be missed. ROCK-n-ROLLA, in my humble opinion, is a perfect movie. Every scene, every line, the cast, the music, editing, the plot, absolutely magnificent. I could watch this flick over and over and it never gets old. 
TOO DAMN COOL ! 
  
And i love this quote, starting bitter and ending sweet, or the vice versa. Definitely profound. Gonna try to put this into practice in my daily life. The opposite thought theory. How many times have I went with THIS IS A GOOD THING only to end in disaster. TOO MANY ! My whole life pretty much. So now, look out ! What seems a disaster on the surface, gonna try to be patient, be humble, and maybe, just maybe, the bitter at the moment. will end sweet.

 Do I have the balls to put this into play ?
  Let's find out dammit ! Life is too damn short. And my ways, my instincts, have never worked in the long run. My brain is telling me to RUN ! RUN AWAY ! RUN LIKE THE WIND ! LIKE A BAT OUT OF HELL !!!!

 Wish me luck. Say prayers. I need all the help i can get as usual. The kind of help that only comes from above. I'm talking DIVINE INTERVENTION. I'M TALKIN BOUT MIRACLES !! In my life, I have been so blessed, given so many miracles, but the problem with me is I NEED MORE !!! For I, yes I, am the creator of my very own misery ! So now, let's try a different approach to the life long mystery of my personal life. A running comedy, tragedy all at the same time. Will I ever learn?Next month, 54 years old. WHAT ? How'd that happen ? How am I still alive ? The aforementioned, (YES ! still got it baby ! what IT is, we are not certain, whatever IT is, I am certain you do not want it. Perhaps, IT stems from the fact that I, yes I, am an eccentric genius, or at least I like to think so. Therapist has a different opinion, but this is my blog dammit, and what i say goes !! she could write her own blog. Speaking of blog, perhaps i can get back to mine, like now ! CHRIST's SAKE !!! ENUF ! 

 Where am I and for how long have i been out? Year? 2016, yes. Month? February, yes. Date ? the 19th, whew !!!! one o these days, one o these days, if you are catching my drift.  

 And now the end is near . .  NO NO NO ! STOP !! HELP !! all this, all of this is one big cry for help ! Somebody stop me ! LEILA ! LOGAN ! NEED YOU NOW NOW NOW !! breath deep the gathering gloom. Was reading some of my writing from a decade ago, YIKES !!! dark dark dark. Had to put it down. was making me shiver bringing back memories from my glorious past. 

So the question on the floor is, HAVE I LEARNED ANYTHING ? events of 11 years ago damn near killed me. Choices, self-will run riot, violence and circumstance beyond my control left me broken. NOW, still sober, still alive, still healthy, have i learned anything? am i wiser? Am I humbly seeking God's guidance ? Or is my disease and my ego and my fucked thinking still in control? I will let you know. one way the other.

IN THE MEAN TIME, PRAY FOR ME.

 2-19-16 - THE WINDY CITY ;
  Alright sugar pop, this one called "goin to a gogo", everybody !! Ever wonder why we call it The Windy City ? If you have been outside today then you know. Damn wind almost knocked me down. Can we ever just have a nice pleasant day round here? Didn't think so. Never know it is February in Chicago. GLOBAL WARMING baby ! Yes, we did it ! WEEEEEEE !!! Summer comin', get ready to burn ! 

 IN THE NEWS TODAY ;
  30 dead in Syria from a strike from The USA !! dam, we good. we are so awesome at killing !! PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN ! My eyes have seen the glory of the comin' of the Lord ! No ? The good ole USA is never not at war. Am I the only person in this country who is deeply disturbed by this ? So much violence. so much evil. Who's in charge, Satan ? Politics, government, business, MASS MEDIA(these mother fuckers are at the top of my go fuck yourself list!), are a colossal failure. These institutions are a slap to your face to people who crave peace, harmony, love, justice, honesty, beauty, compassion, empathy. All these institutions produce is ugly vile disgraceful examples of what life on this planet is supposed to be. And what is that smart guy? Well I'll tell ya if you shut the fuck up for one second ! 

 A wise man once said, and I am quoting "LOVE ONE ANOTHER AS I HAVE LOVED YOU". ring a bell anyone ? anyone ? NO ?
 ALSO, "WE ARE ALL BROTHERS AND SISTERS". am i losing you ? I feel some of you pulling away.
  LET'S NOT FORGET, "FORGIVE EACH OTHER AS I HAVE FORGIVEN YOU". i know what you are thinking, "now he has gone to far".
 Said wise man would be JESUS CHRIST. This info being provided for the godless heathen, the infidel, and every other fucking asshole on this planet who does not believe in these most important teachings. For these simple set of guidelines to living are the only thing that is gonna save the human race. All those other man-made institutions are doing everything to destroy us. 
They are very good at what they do.

BTW; how many civilian casualties were there in Syria? Does anybody give a shit? Didn't think so. 

BELLIGERENT DENIAL ; 
 Most of you know i am a recovering alcoholic. Next month i will be celebrating 19 years of continuous sobriety ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!
 ONLY THRU THE GRACE OF GOD @ SOME WONDERFUL FRIENDS WHO ARE MY GUARDIAN ANGELS ! they saved my life. MIRACLES still happen. Sadly i know so many who still need this gift and too many who are gone away stricken down by this so ugly and vile disease. 
 DON; died recently, 83 years old, sober about 3 decades. a total success story. 
 DAN; a friend who died recently. about 45 years old. sober about a year and a half. Dan did not die sober. He was found dead with a bottle of pills and a bottle of whisky. another victim, another tragedy of this awful disease. too godamm sad ! 

 The great Bill Wilson wrote the state of mind of an active drunk can be described as savage. how do you talk sense to someone in this state of mind? YOU CANNOT ! The attitude is ugly, vile, pathetic. Talking to one of these from a stand point of care is a complete waste of time. YOU WILL END UP WANTING TO PUNCH SAID DRUNK IN THE FACE ! 
 So what does one do? YOU LET THEM FALL. Without hitting a bottom of all bottoms, WE DO NOT CHANGE. WE DO NOT STOP. Painful to see a friend, a family member in this state. At this stage we are beyond human help. Helping often involves enabling, which only continues the abuse of booze @ dope.

 AND FOR ALL OF YOUR HELP, KINDNESS @ LOVE, YOU WILL GET A FUCK YOU ! sad, but true.

ROCK-n-ROLL;

NOW you are talkin my language ! We must keep carrying the message ! For the young are lost. You been listening to the crap on the radio? AAAAUUUURRRRGGGGHHHH !!! stop the madness ! Gotta let my freak flag fly ! Almost cut my hair !! the crowd screams NOOOO!! (tho at my age, the hairline is in full retreat @ and grey). But we must never surrender ! quoting Winston Churchill(who? say the young, never mind, say i). 

 Who are you rocking to? Concerts? Me? lot's of old stuff on YOU TUBE(the greatest invention ever!). i get lost for hours rockin to Sabbath in 1970. i no longer need to leave my house ! ROCK-n-ROLL KOOCHEECOO ! 
 Growing up i felt the 60's was the greatest era of music. then came the early 70's, so much great music. but then, invariably i go back to the 90's. and case closed. the 90's, that era, i simply cannot get enuf of ! Music that sears my soul.
 THE MOST SPIRITUAL OF ALL MUSIC ! ROCK-N-ROLL FROM THE 90'S ! perhaps, you say i may very well be psychotic. albeit, you may very well be right. but on this one, I AM RIGHT !!!!

AND THEY ARE DROPPING LIKE FLIES !!

 LEMMIE - lead singer Motorhead. this band slipped thru my fingers but the man was well respected for a long time. give him his due. 

 Glen Frey - The Eagles, they were huge in the 70's. lasted a long time, sold lots o records. again, gotta give them their due. i was not a big fan but nevertheless(finally!). 

Scott Weiland - lead singer Stone Temple Pilots, 48 years old. TOO GODAMM SAD ! sadly, a poster child for alcohol @ drug abuse. IT NEVER FUCKING ENDS ! 

Paul Kantner - founding member Jefferson Airplane. Now this band, circa 1967, forget about it. as good as it got ! I was a huge fan, even tho i was only 5 years old in '67, nonetheless(weeeee) ! Anthems of a generation. check em out, it never gets old. TALK BOUT HITTIN' IT ! Acid rock ! Flower Power !! Dig the music, not the drugs.

DAVID BOWIE - Ziggy Stardust himself. got lots of messages about this one. many people saddened by his death. very popular for a long time. I was never a fan. sorry guys, but i can't change my tune cuz the man is deceased. 

GOD BLESS THEM ALL FOR THEIR CONTRIBUTIONS TO ROCK-N-ROLL !!

 ya see, even i, yes i can be gracious, open minded to differing opinions.
 Perhaps, just perhaps, there is hope for me yet. 
  what you think reader? or should i jump into a river? but i must carry the fight of good vs. evil. for if not me then who? are you with me? we cannot allow the bad guys to win !!!

Life is about love, beauty, peace, harmony, fun, laughter, abundance, forgiveness, tolerance, empathy, caring, compassion, kindness for each and every one of us. Believing in God/Jesus with the heart of a child ! then i see the kingdom of Heaven, which is found within and all around me. and evil cannot touch me ! and i am still the most blessed man on the planet !!!

AND THE WORLD IS STILL A BEAUTIFUL PLACE !!!!!! 

ANYTHING ELSE IS JUST ABSURD. 

CHAPTER THEME SONG - "MYSFITS" - by 3rd EYE BLIND
 awesome awesome awesome song !!! did i tell you i like this song? 3rd I Blind, another great band from, yes, the 90's. this one is an anthem.

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LAST BEST ONLY HOPE, with the heart of a child, COMING SOON !!

LAST BEST ONLY HOPE, God is Awesome @ Jesus is a Rockstar ! on sale online at Amazon, or Create Space, Kindle, @ Google Books. buy it already, Grand ma needs an operation ! best bargain $$$$ can buy ! a game changer ! you will never be the same. 

                                                GOD BLESS ALWAYS,
                                                                  peace @ love,

                                                                      FW Roman