Third Eye Blind - Something In You [Recorded Live]

 THE CHRISTMAS SEASON IN THE 4th DIMENSION !!! - 2018 

THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO MY BEST FRIEND, MARY SULLIVAN, who has taught me what truly being a friend is. 

   The very best time of year, the color is royal blue, @ the band is 3rd EYE BLIND as we celebrate the birth of JESUS CHRIST, the son of GOD, our Lord @ savior, the light of the world. He is the way, the path, the light to home, to love, to God. Teaching us the power of love, of forgiveness, we are never alone, He is with us always. We are are ALL BROTHERS @ SISTERS, we are all connected, @ finding truth in this oh so troubled world we live in. JESUS bear the burden of the world as His life @ death allowed each @ everyone of us to be forgiven for our sins. Who am I not to forgive? Sometimes the hardest thing in the world, albeit, if I need to be forgiven(who among us is without sin?), I better be forgiving. 

YES, I NEED TO ASK FORGIVENESS (I better start by forgiving everyone), then the Lord does forgive. 

   The essence of spirituality, what Christ taught, to get, to have, give it away. Simple, brilliant, genius even. Too simple? Sometimes, yes. If I want love, I need to be loving(try it, you may like it). Family, friends, co-workers(nooooo !!!!, yes), the love of mankind, love your neighbor(nooooo !!!!, yes), as yourself. The results are staggering, amazing, joyous making me free from the burdens @ being enslaved to the world at large @ the bondage of self. Nothing, NOTHING (did I mention nothing?), frees me as these teachings. To get out of my own selfish self-centered tiny mindset, AND BEGIN TO THINK OF THE WELFARE OF OTHERS, and that specifically starts with family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, my own community, for if this is not happening at home, those closest to me, physically, @ emotionally, IT AIN'T HAPPENING ANY WHERE !!!!!!!!!    BOOM   !!!! MIKE DROP !!! 
  Give it all away, the lot, all day, everyday. 

THOSE THAT SEEK TRUTH AND FIND IT, SHALL HEAR MY VOICE. 

 How dangerous those words are. Truth put JESUS on a cross, after all, did it not? Those words are as true today as they were 2000 years ago. The truth, ya see reader, is frightening, to everybody. Most certainly to the gigantic man-made institutions that crucified Christ. RELIGION, with the wealthy powerful high-priests, the elders, the scribes, who condemned JESUS to torture @ crucifixion after CHRIST ran riot in the temple and rightly so, accusing them of turning HIS FATHER'S house into a den of thieves. AND HE WAS RIGHT, THIS WAS THE TRUTH, and it killed HIM. 
  (footnote; did the religious leaders forget that small detail in THE 10 COMMANDMENTS, ya know the one, THOU SHALT NOT KILL !!!!!! mull for yourselves. come to your own conclusions. get back to me). 

 FLASH-FORWARD 2000 years; how's things workin' out for our world religions today? TRUTH frightens them as much as it did 2000 years ago. THEY HAVE LEARNED NOTHING. THEY HAVE NOT CHANGED ONE IOTA. What's been going on in the world pertaining to religion is pathetic, an embarrassment, disgusting. Nevertheless, that's just me. Come to your own conclusions. TRUTH, one hell of a thing.

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  NEXT !!! Says, the soup Nazi! Get that? gotta lighten your burden every now @ then, no? Cuz, reader, my #1 fan, et al @ all that crap, I DO THIS FOR YOU, JUST YOU @ NO ONE ELSE. Your happiness, wisdom, @ spiritual growth are my responsibility, but you know this. This is why I am here, this is why I do what I do. I'm giving it away, whether you want it or . . . not. Cuz, you ask why?, I care. Some how, I need to reach you. My words need to touch you, to make you tingle, even. That's what I'm talkin' 'bout !!!! YOU KNOW AS WELL AS I, WE ARE CONNECTED. On a deep spiritual level, deeper than bones. I DO NEED YOU, YA KNOW?  I want you, @ I can't get enuf !!! (3eb, thanks). Right on ! 

HOW'S EVERYBODY FEELIN' NOW? 

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THE SCRIBES, Today's modern day media; 

  Circus, joke asshole-filled institution with an enormous amount of power which literally has become modern man's brain, authority on what is important, news worthy or not. These scumbags have become modern man's moral compass !!! . This kills me. 1984, by George Orwell, nailed it. His predictions about the future were right on. The blind obedience, acceptance, the absolute stupidity, ignorance in our modern day society of what is news, of what is important, what is not news worthy never never never ceases to amaze. PEOPLE CANNOT BE THIS STUPID, but albeit, however, nevertheless, furthermore(no stopping me now, for I am on a roll, ya dig?), we are. Coast to coast, Canada to Mexico, Kelsey's Crik(you'll never get it), The Stupids have inherited the earth(JESUS called them the meek). Seemingly(hachacha!), educated people have digressed to obedient puppy-dog level of existence (that, reader, is one hell of a sentence, no?). 
  Orwell published 1984 I believe in 1949, I may be wrong(been known to happen, it won't happen again), check out the movie, scary how right on he was. The people blindly obedient, reminding of the crowd at the Democratic party HQ, watching the staggering defeat of the beloved Hilary Clinton. Not knowing how to react, not knowing what to think, helpless hopelessness setting in. We as a people now speak what Orwell wrote NEWSPEAK(so right on, it is truly frightening). The NEWS, the tiny devices people cannot function without (it's a phone people !!!!), has become way too many peoples' brain, moral compass, HIGHER POWER !!! 
  The media, from day 1, are nothing but a bunch of godamm liars, spreading Grimm's Faerie Tales each @ everyday. They don't print fact. They don't spout truth. The news, so powerful now, people have become sheep, hypnotized on a mass-scale, brain-washed even, lost. They have forgotten the word of GOD a long time ago. 

  Printing truth, is that a joke? What happened to privacy for the individual @ transparency for institutions? Well, as great as that idea sounds, that idea got squashed with Julian Assange @ Wikileaks. 

Pontius Pilate, governing bodies, politicians, military might; 

   May as well throw the king in the mix, Herod (whose daddy had all babies killed upon hearing the news of the new king of Israel being born). All these people were so afraid of a man who spoke of love, forgiveness, non-violence, mercy, we are ALL brothers @ sisters. CHRIST, however, spoke truth (as opposed to news speak), and exposed all these people as frauds, crooks, cons, cheats, thieves, murderers that THEY WERE. They held the power, the army, the weapons, the evil @ ruled with an iron boot. 2000 years later, THESE SAME INSTITUTIONS HAVE NOT CHANGED ONE IOTA. THEY HAVE LEARNED NOTHING. Still believing in power, money, corruption, evil, violence on a global scale now. Spitting in the name of Christ as they did 2000 years ago. Lying all day/everyday. The wheel turns, nothing changes. AND WE SWALLOW IT AS IF IT WERE GOSPEL. 

  Orwell wrote about an eternal war, MOTHERFUCKERSONOFABITCH, he was right. We have the eternal war now, it will never end. I'm sure you've all herd 'bout the war on terror, the war that will never end. The war our political leaders (on both sides), the armies(business is booming), intelligence agencies (stepping on The U.S. Constitution all day baby), the media (scribes in Jesus's time), live breathe @ die for.   The fact of the matter is theses people work for Satan. Anyone who believes GOD/JESUS are the root cause of violence/evil, NEED TO KILL YOURSELVES. YES, IT'S TIME TO JUMP OUT A WINDOW, OR IF YOU PREFER, JUMP INTO A RIVER (God has given us free will after all). You won't be missed. 

  I would be remiss(still got baby), if I fail to mention the voters in the good ole USA, who keep electing the same assholes, bitching about the same shit, decade after decade. What we got here is failure to communicate(cool hand luke, thanks). Both sides pointing the finger at the other never, never realizing they are both 2 sides of the same coin. These meek one's exhaust me, but someone has to fight the battle of good v evil, dammit ! If not me than who? READER, help !!!
 Dems, the progs, liberals, the medias, the jack ass is their mascot (fits). Whose political philosophy is spouting Democrat good, Republican bad. NO MATTER THE ISSUE, THIS IS AS FAR AS THESE ONE'S GET. Seemingly educated people, and this level of stupidity makes me want to scream, AAAAUUUURRRRGGGGHHHH !!!! There is a mass psychosis going on here, as if brainwashed. These one's have the EXACT SAME OPINION ON EVERY SINGLE ISSUE FACING OUR SOCIETY. THIS CANNOT BE POSSIBLE, BUT IT IS !!!!  I wish I were kidding.
 Case in point - how Dems love old Republicans once they are deceased. With the recent deaths of old man Bush @ old man McCain, the VOPs(the community where i reside) upon hearing the news, eulogized both men into icons. When living, on the other hand, these Gops were loathed. Can't make this shit up. Hilarious @ pathetic at the same time. Dems didn't use the death of other human beings for political gain, did they? Get back to me on this one. Would love to hear comments. 

 Sorry, sorry, i need to control my emotions. Albeit, i am just a man, one man who every now @ then acts like one ! BOOM! 

  AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT (the Holy Grail, this movie is a mirror image of what is going on in the world all youze lives in). 

  Yeall thinkin' I'm a card carryin' member of the GOPs. WRONG kimosaby(spell check, pronounced phonetically). The Republicans, which I fondly refer to as THE MOOPS(fits, does it not?). Altho, the moops do not exist in The Windy City, nor in all of Cook County, Il. Dems have had a stranglehold on this turf forever. Progs keep bithching how things really suck cuz o' the gops, not realizing dems got the power round here @ yet they always find something to ruin there lives. Like Trump building a wall between Mexico @ the USA, which was nothing more than a lark. Or Trump @ the gops being inhuman towards immigrants trying to get into the US illegally. Forgetting the laws in regard to these matters have been on the books way before Trump got into office. Put into law by some of the very politicians they voted for !!! Furthermore, these same laws were never a problem when KING O was in power ! 
 Are ya catchin' my drift? 

  The Gops, the party with no balls. The uptight white-ass suburban party who do nothing but keep moving west. Vying to run away from every single problem instead of facing things as men, as real men. I LOVED LOVED LOVED how Trump destroyed every single leading member of this party during the debates. AND IT WAS EASY. The old Republican guard loath this man. The McCains, all the Bushs, ex-senator Kirk, Romney, the leaders of a party that for the past 20 years was nothing but a joke, dead. The same philosophy as dems, REPUBLICAN GOOD-DEMOCRAT BAD. Me, and this is just me, trying to see truth, objectively, without party affiliation, without agenda, just truth, realty, seeing all the massive BULLSHIT being shoved down peoples' throats everyfuckingday, BOTH SIDES SUCK !!!!!!! 

  Old man Bush killed the innocents in Panama. Old lady Hilary @ "O", killed the innocents in Libya. 2 sides of the same coin. BOTH SIDES ARE THE PROBLEM. Thusly, nothing ever ever ever changes. Neither being held accountable by the constituents nor the news assholes. AM I THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS COUNTRY WHO SEES THIS NONSENSE? Does that make me the last sane person on this planet? 
 Sometimes, I think I am. 

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  Our leaders, thenewsassholes, big-business, small business, all government, 2000 years ago, they were called high priests, scribes, elders, money-changers. Nothing has changed. I have a brilliant built in lie detector, I can see BS from a mile away. I can't be alone on this, can I? Most people will cling to what they hold near @ dear, value, ideas, philosophy, EGO, even when they are completely in the wrong. Clinging even to the gates of insanity @ death. I can't live that way. I need to cling to rigorous honesty, that is my salvation, my sanity in a world that is completely upside down-sideways. 

WHATEVER EVER HAPPENED TO THE PEACEKEEPERS? 

JESUS would be appalled, but not surprised. I think God is weeping. Religion @ GOD/JESUS are not the same thing. Important this, pay attention or you may miss something. 
                      
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 NOW THAT I HAVE ALIENATED the JAs(mull, it may come to you), @ the Moops, truth does sting, does it not? I have not come to condemn, but to serve, as my LORD @ SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST instructed. Fighting the battle of GOOD v EVIL can be quite taxing I must admit. Nevertheless, furthermore may I deduce, I got the time. Nothing better on my agenda today. Got nowhere else I need to be. Nothing else to do. So all yas can relax, chill, I GOT THIS THING. Til I find myself with head in hands demoralized, bewildered, terror-filled, distraught, frustrated, @ in despair. I then cry out JESUS HELP SAVE ME LORD !!!!!! AND EVERY-SINGLE TIME, HE DOES !!!!!! 
   The world becomes a much more beautiful place, with still so many beautiful people in it. There is always hope for a better tomorrow just to the extent I pray to GOD to fill my heart with HIS grace. THEN I AM FREE. Then I remember HIS GIFTS TO THE WORLD. CHRISTMAS presents that cannot be bought. That can be mine each @ everyday. IF I CHOOSE. The Lord cannot help me without my cooperation(important footnote this). If I SEEK - I SHALL FIND. IF I ASK - I SHALL RECEIVE. IF I KNOCK - THE DOOR SHALL BE OPENED. 
  Even when the awful happens, this catches up to us all eventually, I can still find something to be grateful for just as long I do not forget my faith @ trust in the LORD who has never let me down, never abandoned me, who has given me everything I need for a beautiful blessed life. GOD IS AWESOME @ JESUS IS TRULY A ROCKSTAR !!!!! The light of the world. 
  
  In the 4th DIMENSION, we make a commitment to reality, to truth, to rigorous honesty. Acknowledging the good, as well as the bad. The love/hate. Beauty/ugly. The second I ignore reality, reality begins to work against me. My plans, reality doesn't give a rat's ass about my plans. Humbly trying to stay grateful for what I have, @ not being miserable for the things I have not. In the 4th dimension, we do our best to remember the most glorious gifts one can ever obtain. For without these, life is way too difficult. My joy, happiness, welfare is my responsibility. I need to make a stand, making decisions in regards to health, peace of mind, my dreams. I can choose to live each day as if it were my last(cuz a, ya never know, do we?). How clear my priorities become. 

  Living LAST-BEST-ONLY-HOPE, we strive, work, seek, ask, believe, keeping faith, trust, cry, fall, get back up, go, on our journey from from THE DARK into THE LIGHT. The greatest gifts are mine if I choose. 

LOVE - love each other as I love you. Love of your fellow man may be the greatest love of all. I need love, be loving.

FORGIVE - Do I need to be forgiven? Endlessly. Be forgiving. 

WE ARE ALL BROTHERS @ SISTERS. WE ARE ALL CONNECTED. EVERYTHING IS CONNECTED. 

I AM NEVER ALONE - GOD/JESUS are with me always. Even in despair, HE is right there. Never not. GOD does not abandon us. We abandon HIM. 

TRUTH - I need courage to stay committed to reality. Without rigorous honesty, there is no peace, no harmony. There is madness. 
  
KEEPING FAITH - especially when the storms come, for they come for us all. Removing so much unnecessary fear. Fear can paralyze, age you, puts people in the hospital. Can stop you from doing what in your heart you know you are capable of doing. Most of our fears are a lie. 

  Without these wonderful gifts, life is way too much for me to handle. With them the world is wondrous, endlessly. Seeing the world thru the eyes of a child, I find Heaven within @ all-around me. WE ARE ALL CHILDREN OF GOD. HE wants each @ every one of us to have life more abundantly in every way, everlasting. Joyful, peaceful, beautiful, comfortable, warm, safe, healthy, loving. 

 Don't know 'bout you guys, I'm stayin' in the light. I have had my fill of the dark, thank you very much. So much of the dark has been of my own doing. Some not. I did have some help getting to the jumping off place, however, nevertheless, albeit, uponfurtherreview, needless to say @ all that other crap, NOT ME, NOT TODAY. 

LIFE CAN BE SO BEAUTIFUL IT HURTS. 

Although I am on the side of the angels, I never forget I am not one. 

                                        PEACE @ LOVE ALWAYS, FW Roman

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CHAPTER THEME SONG;  "Something In You"  by 3rd EYE BLIND 

   Musically, there is an on going internal battle for my soul. What I thought was love, I was not even close. What I thought was joy, I was not even in the ballpark. Not even close. It has taken a long time to come this, often bitter, conclusion. There is the ideal, the light we strive for, love. Failing miserably. The ideal has been THE GOO GOO DOLLS, the band I have listened to more than any other for the past 20 years. Beautiful songs, ballads, rockin', John Reznik, a great singer, writer, showman. 
  
  Then we have my reality, represented by the fabulous 3rd Eye Blind. Which showcases my life thru the sweet, melodic beauty attached to the scars within. There is  in Stephen's music, along with his popping rock-n-roll, the complete aspect of spirituality, the dark comes alongside the light, always. It's all connected. There is sorrow, madness, pain, insanity, horror, criminal, evil. However, there is a compassion, an empathy, a kindness, a warmth through out. 3eb, is the reality, is the soundtrack to my life. This is not easy for me to admit. I have caused a lot of harm. My demons haunt me. Demons of my own making. I wiped out, stepped on some of the most beautiful women I have ever known. Beautiful people who loved me. Some demons, not of my own making, have scarred me down to my bones, changed forever, I am not the same guy I used to be. 
  The songs of 3eb, expose my soul, my heart, ripping me to shreds. Nevertheless, this is the reality. I'm in exile. Knowing at the exact same time, how utterly blessed I have been @ am !!! ROCK !!!!!!!  

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 To friends, family, everybody, we are all connected. Wishing all of you a most blessed @ HAPPIEST CHRISTMAS. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. GOD/JESUS ROCK !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS !!!!!!!
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