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SHITZ @ GIGGLES (The Return of) - 2019 New Year Edition !! 

HEROES, few, @ far in-between, however, upon close scrutiny, there are a couple or 2, still out there. One is my brother, Eddie, who despite suffering serious physical ailments, procedures, surgeries, facing further treatments(the poor guy, honest), remains one of the most optimistic, positive, hopeful people I have ever known. Despite all of this, going on for decades now, he has been a rock within our family @ a beacon of light to me, always. I love you brother.  

  S@G -Straight outta rehab (cuz now, we gonna laugh!) 
   Happyeffingnewyear !!! Good, now that we got that outta the way, can we proceed sir ? (get that one I'll give you $100). 

 Self-imposed Detoxification (EXILE); 
  
  CLEANSE THE SYSTEM - 
 daily enemas, good for the soul, tho my ass is killing me! 

 GOOD EATING HABITS -
  Frozen burritos $1 each, Hot Pockets $1 each, Crunch-n-Munch (or Fiddle-Faddle as a substitute, will work just as well), 7-11 pizza($6, the best). Ice-cream, still a staple. An addiction I will never relinquish, @ the very best anti-depressant ever! 

  My way of telling the legal pusherman, big-pharm, kill yourselves. These MFers, have sold the USA down the river, with "O's" @ NP's  blessing. Nevertheless, why bring reality to any political discussion, right?   

 ALL-GLUTEN DIET - 
   All gluten-all day baby!  tho I'm still not sure what gluten is. This, this is beautiful. One of the great con-jobs in the history of con-jobs. A magnificent ad- campaign, brilliant marketing. I should be so clever, so bold. Gluten-free beer, really. 

 "Honey, grab me a 30 pack o' Busch lite. Make sure it's gluten-free, ok?" 
The shit we swallow never ceases to amaze. Are we really this stupid, I mean, as a peoples? Yeah, we are.  

SMOKING -
   is a filthy disgusting habit. Lung-throat-gum cancer. Breath stinks. Yellow teeth. Clothes smell, hair smells. Costs a fortune. Having said that, I'VE LOVED EVERYONE I EVER HAD !!! I will never quit. No way- no how-not gonna happen. I like it too much. 

*sorry sorry, i gotta pee. gimme 20. my prostrate is doing just fine, thank you for asking.* 

 Strict regiment of EXERCISE - 
   Actually doing pretty good on this one - KETTLE WORX, thru week 6 ! I am a machine!!! I LOOK GREAT IN MY NEW SKINNY JEANS ! @ what 56 year old white male heterosexual doesn't want to look good in their new skinny jeans? My ass is hot ladies !!! Still got it! Still got it goin' on !!! The stuff, I can still bring it. Just like Kenny Chesney! Or if you'd rather, Billy Ray Cyrus! 

  HONESTLY,  KETTLE-BELL - 
  This is a great workout routine. Do it at home(save a ton o' $$$, no health club ripoff). Low-impact, no pounding on pavement, no heavy- weight lifting. My days of running are over. Too old for bike riding(too dangerous - too many assholes driving). I could never do the treadmill thing(just not my bag). Getting older(@ thank God for that), this is good stuff as we age. I do walk a lot(get good shoes), this is one of the best things we could do as we age. Gotta keep movin' people. CAN'T HIT A MOVING TARGET !!
Tho I do find myself looking over my shoulder often(can't be too safe - there are those that have me in their cross-hairs). 

****KEEP THE BODY-WEIGHT DOWN****

GROOMING -
  Fess-up time. Yup, my hairline, thinning, receding, @ gray(tears flowing). If I could I would have hair down to my ass, honestly. So, humbling myself to reality (AAAUUURRRGGGHHH), I am 56(fuck, tho i am blessed to be amongst the living), we must accept things as they are. Or do we? 
  More secrets, I been spray-painting my head with Ron Popiel's INSTANT HAIR! (you get used to the smell, watering eyes, headaches, open the windows, DO NOT SMOKE!) After a couple a go-arounds, I'm really getting the hang of this. Not so messy now. PSA - MEN, chicks dig it !!! I am catching the glimpses, the looks, the behind the hand chatter, and oh yes, the smiles.   

 No matter our ages, there are things we can do to keep it goin' on, SWING BABY! 

 And ready to take on the world ! 

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SELF(GOD?)-IMPOSED EXILE;

  Tried this before, it didn't take, (got my teeth kicked in actually). This time, however, it's gonna be different. I can feel it. Even tho I've tried this 1000 times, (failing miserly), this time is gonna be different. I can feel it, scratch it, touch, sniff even(awrite, stop, get some Lanacaine(spelling?)). I CAN DO THIS. I GOT THIS THING, NO PROBLEM. If not this time then when? When do I finally get it thru my thick Honky-Polish-German-Catholic-Jewish?-ass skull, that LIFE is a WE program. 

   We are all brothers @ sisters -
 (black-white-latinos, republicans-dems, Sox-Cubs even, Catholic-Prods-Muslum-godless heathen, city-suburbs). STOP !!!!! I gotta draw a line somewhere. I loathe the suburbs. I am a city kid thru @ thru. Suburbs, ugh !! That is a different world I want no part of(as stated in the aforementioned, tried, it did not take).  Drive everywhere, no public-trans. Can't walk anywhere, no sidewalks. WTF? NO SIDEWALKS !! What planet is this! 

      Dupage County, BUILD A WALL AROUND THIS !!!!

  I need an alley. Park the car when I have one, in my 1 car garage. Walk thru my yard, outside. Actually know who my neighbor is. Stop, chat, even. What a concept! 

  To qualify for membership in this club, one must -

1) - Be a full-fledged GOP(naturally),
2) - Be Caucasian(or trying to be, see LESTER HOLT),
3) - One must golf (golf sucks ass), 
4) - Be 35-40 pounds overweight, 
5) - Drive either a  BMW, Lexus, Mercedes, or Audi. 

So basically, one must be OCD, uptight, and on the verge of erectile dysfunction.

  *** IF I SEE ONE MORE CHRISTMAS commercial with a new car in the driveway, people will die. Me? I just got a new bus pass !!!! WEEEEEEEEE !!!!! look at me now ! I been workin' since I was 15 years old, look at me now !!! My mother, Jadwiga, God rest her soul, would say I am quite the catch !!! 

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JANUARY-2019; 

   WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO 2018? it just started. Time is so flying, older I get, Jesus. Blink, another year. Make it count, this year, now, today, NOT TOMORROW. I am trying to live each day as if it were my last(ya never know). I couldn't bitch either(I been on borrowed time for decades). Let's review, what the hell we are doing here in the 1st place? 
   LAST-BEST-ONLY-HOPE is the philosophy that a spiritual life as taught us by JESUS CHRIST, is the only place where we find hope. That there is a loving GOD @ we all are HIS children. We are never alone, our lives are not our own. This whole thing is temporary. We believe GOD works thru people, for faith without works is dead !!!! (this one has been killing me lately).  The toughest of them all might be finding, seeking truth. Why do we seek truth? "THOSE THAT SEEK TRUTH AND FIND IT SHALL HEAR MY VOICE". People are terrified of truth. We invent shit to justify our own ridiculous philosophical beliefs, political beliefs, religious beliefs completely ignoring(or cowardly) truth. 
  WE are all connected(another one killing me). Everything is connected. Everything we do is connected to the next. All peoples are connected to the rest. @ seemingly unrelated events, ARE COMPLETELY TOTALLY UNEQUIVOCALLY RELATED. And effected by each and everything we do. One of my most difficult tasks recently, has been achieving forgiveness for each and everyone I know. For if not, I am not forgiven. The upside down effect. Keep it-give it away. By loving, I gain love. By bringing hope, I gain hope. Being a friend, I gain friends. Trying to bring peace, I am peaceful. Helping someone find sanity, I stay sane. By admitting I am an alcoholic, a hopeless drunk, @ cannot stop drinking, I GAIN STRENGTH. For I could NEVER NEVER EVER stay sober loe these 22 years without a lot of help. This is where divine intervention @ the grace of God thru His beloved son JESUS, come into play. 

  Being touched by the HAND OF GOD is one hell of the thing. To come into contact with HIS grace, His love, His power is truly miraculous @ and available to all who seek HIS GRACE HIS POWER HIS LOVE. Seek @ Ye shall find. Ask @ ye shall receive. Knock @ the door shall be opened. One caveat, GOD/JC CANNOT HELP US WITHOUT OUR COOPERATION. This is a biggy. 

  I have been on the wrong end of this equation for far too long @ too many times. We do get what is coming to us, there is karma. What goes around, most certainly comes back. And I am being stymied. Stopped in my tracks. End before it begins. Professionally, personally my life is intertwined, so entwined it is scary. There are no coincidences. My past has caught up with me. Time to pay the piper, past due, do not pass go, do not collect $200. 
  God is stopping me(seemingly anyways), from making the same mistakes, hurting people callously, without regard nor concern. The level of my indifference for so many years, for far too long, amazes even me. I shutter at my apathy. But no more. God is now stopping me in tracks. Stopping me from MAKING THE SAME GODDAMM MISTAKES I'VE BEEN MAKING MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE. 
  WHEN THE FUCK WILL I LEARN ??  
     Thusly, I AM IN EXILE.  

 ***I talk a good game. I write about many good things. Talk is so cheap. One thing I cannot forget, EVEN THO I AM ON THE SIDE OF THE ANGELS, I NEVER THINK FOR ONE SECOND, THAT I AM ONE OF THEM. We are defined by our actions*** 

     We gonna get more into this next chapter. Back into the 4th Dimension - where the number is 11-11, the color is royal blue, the band is 3rd EYE BLIND, so for now, without further ado(wow), it is time to laugh, to chuckle, snigger, guffaw with SHITZ @ GIGGLES. Laughter, the great medicine that keeps me from committing murder(kidding, ya see how this works?).  GO !

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Jan. 2019 @ The Chicago Sports scene; 

   Stop me before I pee my pants. Have things ever been this pathetic? Sadly, yes. Pretty much my entire childhood The Windy City sports teams sucked so bad for so long, much like now. Where to start? Ah, at the bottom. 

THE CHICAGO BULLS; 

   HAHAHA !!!! LOL !!!!!!!! Fall out of my chair. Fuck me, are you kidding me? The world we live in is so upside down. Why in the name of all things holy does John Paxson have a fucking job? Garr Hurd, whatever the fuck his name is, really? Worst team in the NBA. These 2 jokers, for how long now? TOOFUCKINGLONG !!!! And white-suburban fools still go, paying a fortune to support this embarrassing club. Bulls ownership, I could do John Paxson's job, just as badly, for a lot less $$$$$$. What is this clown's salary? How many millions? Give me 1/10th of what this loser makes. Think of the savings. I could give you the results these jokers are giving you for a lot less money, CALL ME. I AM AVAILABLE. What have you got to lose? 
  
  Or, close up shop and leave town. No one will miss you. You are a disgrace to my city. GET OUT ! WHY IS THE GODDAMM NEWS giving these 2 every break in the world. NEWS MEDIA SUCK ASS !!!! THAT'S WHY! 
I have not watched a Bull's game since MJ left. I got my pride. 

BLACKHAWKS; 

  Let's be grateful for the 3 titles this team gave us. They got 3, not a bad achievement there. Nevertheless, as they always do, the window has finally shut. I think they are in last place.  I haven't seen a game for a couple o' now. I guess I am not missing much. I imagine the fans still selling out, costing a fortune. It makes me ill to see the salary of pro athletes, management, the price to go to a game, price of concessions, and STUPIDLY, more white-suburbans pay up the ass. Low-income, mid-class income families are out !!! 

THIS STARTLING FACT KILLS ME. The rich get richer, @ we get poor. The JA party,  cry about this fact, while so many of these very fans are liberals and are instrumental in propagating this mess they keep crying about ( yeah, I got political on ya. Why do I pik on JA's, cuz the dems have owned the Windy City for what, 65 years now, that's why. GOPs are extinct 'round here). Time to boycott this non-sense. 

WHITE SOX; 

  Really? Yeah, ok they are still in Chicago. I don't know where to begin. This team and baseball lost me in 1994, year o' the strike. I understand that this last place team is fun to watch @ they try real hard. So does my neighbor's 6 year old daughter who plays T-Ball down the street.  I would rather watch little league any day before pro's in this town all day everyday. Shut them down, get out. Having a higher education and doing the maths, the rate the South-siders win championships, the next one is due in the year 2093 !!!! WEEEEEEE, yes !!! Did they at least finally, mercifully, get rid of the HAWK? 
  I am unable to give you the name of one player on this current roster. I am unequivocally out. 

CUBS; 

  The aforementioned window, closes fast, does it not. And knowing the history of this organization, well, at the rate this team wins titles, the next one is due in 2124. Allow me to state that fact one more time, cuz I can hardly believe what I am writing @ this is my goddamm city !!!! At the rate the CHICAGO CUBS win championships, the next one is due in 2124 !!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
   If it wasn't true, no one would believe it. What does one say? They sellout every-fucking-game! It costs a fortune. What a fucking ripoff! But albeit, the fans pay. If I could afford it, I wouldn't pay. I CAN'T AFFORD TO GO TO THESE GAMES. When younger, @ having much more buying power, we went to games ALL THE TIME!! Can someone do the maths please? 

  How much $$$ ? 

2 tickets, 
one beer an inning(back in the day, yeah, in a galaxy far, far, away), 
hot dogs(always loved a hot dog at the ball game) 
Cub hat, 
Cub t-shirt, 
parking. 

PRICE ? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? That's how much. 
  PLAYERS MAKES MILLIONS $$$$$$$$$$. Management, vendors, et al, You know what Chicago Cubs, you couldn't pay me to go to one of your games. 
  Just as the Sox, the Cubs one and done. 
2124, people. The magic # is 2124 !!!!!!!!!! Pee my pants, LOL fall down !!!! Rich white people keep paying. Poor get poor, well done. 

  NOT ME BROTHER. This is a microcosm of what is wrong in THE UNITED STATE OF AMERICA !!! 

DUH BEARS; 

  SUPER BOWL SHUFFLE BABY !!!! Da Coach, Sweetness, Fridge, Punky QB, 46, sadly the last championship was 33 years ago. Once more, to be redundant, the last super bowl championship was 1985, 33 years ago !!!! Are you fucking kidding me ?? But they made the playoffs right? Only to lose in typical Bear fashion of great D, no O, @ a double doink !!!!!! 
  CODY PARKEY(mr. automatic), CODYFUCKINGPARKEY !!!!(will be immortalized right along side JAYFUCKINGCUTLER, and Steve Bartman). 

  1st thought, where the fuck is Robbie Gould? Bears don't need him, no. Are you kidding? It's never one play in the NFL. Certainly not gonna win a lot of games scoring 15 points !!! I thought new coach was O genius? 15 points, that's fantastic. Mitch was banged up. Bears have a championship D that we have seen before too many times in The Windy City, with no O.  Too bad, cuz they matched up great v The Rams. 
   Woulda- shoulda-coulda. Windows, they close so fast.

   Unless, of course you are the New England Patriots. This team, every season. Brady is SUPERMAN. 9th SB !!!! 9 !! 8 straight AFC games !!! 8 !!! TB12 is simply the greatest football player in the history of the NFL !!! Never seen this, we will never see this again. Enjoy it while he lasts. Cuz once he is finally done, there my not be any good reason to watch the NFL. 

  AND our Monsters of The Midway, haven't won a title since 1985. 

  FUCK ME 

THE NCAA @ THE (pathetic) STATE OF ILLINOIS - 

   This state, has got to be the worst state in all 50, when ranking achievement in collegiate sports. Sticking to the 4 major sports, men's division, what we got here is a failure to communicate !!!(another $50 if you get this). This is CHICAGO, THE WINDY CITY, city of big shoulders, I mean really, WTF ?  
   
 HOCKEY- this is a hockey town- zero across the board zero. A disgrace. 
 BASKETBALL - well this used to be a great b-ball town. Really embarrassing. 
 BASEBALL - this state should be rocking in this sport. Never anything on this one. 
 FOOTBALL - for the love of GOD !!! 

AAAAAUUUUURRRRRGGGGGHHHHH !! 

U of I, Champaign - CHILDREN OF THE CORN 
DEPAUL - they used to have a basketball program
NORTHWESTERN - anything ? 
LOYOLA - ?????????
NIU - ????
SIU - ????
  and the rest do not matter. This state should be kicking ass within all 4 major sports. We aren't even respectable. We are a disgrace. I don't get it. Nobody gets it 'round here and I don't think anyone gives a shit. Which really is too bad, cuz, college sports can so kickass. High School sports kicks ass just as well.  

ME, FW Roman, am offering my services to all schools stated above. I can be your AD, or coach in any sport. I can give you the results you are getting now, AND I WILL DO THE JOB FOR A LOT LESS MONEY $$$$ . Call me. 

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  2019, a year of change. I need to walk the walk. Great faith. Great trust. The world is still a beautiful place, even with all the ugly. So many beautiful people. I have been so blessed. There is a GOD, He is love @ His son is Jesus Christ, my Lord @ savior. All things are possible. There is a battle of good v evil, everyday, all day. First, it starts within, outward. Til next time, I'll be thinkin' o' you !!!

                                                       L-B-O-H, there is always hope, usually not where you think it is. HAPPIEST NEW YEAR TO ALL HUMAN BEINGS EVERYWHERE, we are all connected. 
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CHAPTER THEME SONG;  "CRYSTAL BALLER", from the LP, BLUE, by 3rd EYE BLIND, 1999 

   It's happened. The impossible. A seismic shift of the polar axis. My all-time fave, The BEATLES, have finally, after a 53 year run, been usurped by 3rd Eye Blind, as my all-time fave band ever ever ever. I have never loved a band as much as this. I have never been this addicted to one band. I cannot stop listening. Stephen Jenkins, my God, an unbelievable talent for over 20 years now. The band is flawless in concert, just killing it.  Rock, stagger me, jaw dropping, electricity into my marrow, soundtrack of my life, into my heart, soul, body, mind. The good-the bad, all at once. Impact, searing my soul. Defining me. Showcasing the grief, sorrow, guilt, heartbreak- the beauty, love, joy, the blast life can be, ALL AT THE SAME TIME.  
  So, yeah, I kinda dig 'em.

Seeing them for the 3rd time in JUNE, in The Windy City. GOD is good, God is awesome, @ Jesus is a Rockstar !!! 

                                                      PEACE @ LOVE, 

                                                                                        FW ROMAN 

Third Eye Blind - Something In You [Recorded Live]

 THE CHRISTMAS SEASON IN THE 4th DIMENSION !!! - 2018 

THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO MY BEST FRIEND, MARY SULLIVAN, who has taught me what truly being a friend is. 

   The very best time of year, the color is royal blue, @ the band is 3rd EYE BLIND as we celebrate the birth of JESUS CHRIST, the son of GOD, our Lord @ savior, the light of the world. He is the way, the path, the light to home, to love, to God. Teaching us the power of love, of forgiveness, we are never alone, He is with us always. We are are ALL BROTHERS @ SISTERS, we are all connected, @ finding truth in this oh so troubled world we live in. JESUS bear the burden of the world as His life @ death allowed each @ everyone of us to be forgiven for our sins. Who am I not to forgive? Sometimes the hardest thing in the world, albeit, if I need to be forgiven(who among us is without sin?), I better be forgiving. 

YES, I NEED TO ASK FORGIVENESS (I better start by forgiving everyone), then the Lord does forgive. 

   The essence of spirituality, what Christ taught, to get, to have, give it away. Simple, brilliant, genius even. Too simple? Sometimes, yes. If I want love, I need to be loving(try it, you may like it). Family, friends, co-workers(nooooo !!!!, yes), the love of mankind, love your neighbor(nooooo !!!!, yes), as yourself. The results are staggering, amazing, joyous making me free from the burdens @ being enslaved to the world at large @ the bondage of self. Nothing, NOTHING (did I mention nothing?), frees me as these teachings. To get out of my own selfish self-centered tiny mindset, AND BEGIN TO THINK OF THE WELFARE OF OTHERS, and that specifically starts with family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, my own community, for if this is not happening at home, those closest to me, physically, @ emotionally, IT AIN'T HAPPENING ANY WHERE !!!!!!!!!    BOOM   !!!! MIKE DROP !!! 
  Give it all away, the lot, all day, everyday. 

THOSE THAT SEEK TRUTH AND FIND IT, SHALL HEAR MY VOICE. 

 How dangerous those words are. Truth put JESUS on a cross, after all, did it not? Those words are as true today as they were 2000 years ago. The truth, ya see reader, is frightening, to everybody. Most certainly to the gigantic man-made institutions that crucified Christ. RELIGION, with the wealthy powerful high-priests, the elders, the scribes, who condemned JESUS to torture @ crucifixion after CHRIST ran riot in the temple and rightly so, accusing them of turning HIS FATHER'S house into a den of thieves. AND HE WAS RIGHT, THIS WAS THE TRUTH, and it killed HIM. 
  (footnote; did the religious leaders forget that small detail in THE 10 COMMANDMENTS, ya know the one, THOU SHALT NOT KILL !!!!!! mull for yourselves. come to your own conclusions. get back to me). 

 FLASH-FORWARD 2000 years; how's things workin' out for our world religions today? TRUTH frightens them as much as it did 2000 years ago. THEY HAVE LEARNED NOTHING. THEY HAVE NOT CHANGED ONE IOTA. What's been going on in the world pertaining to religion is pathetic, an embarrassment, disgusting. Nevertheless, that's just me. Come to your own conclusions. TRUTH, one hell of a thing.

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  NEXT !!! Says, the soup Nazi! Get that? gotta lighten your burden every now @ then, no? Cuz, reader, my #1 fan, et al @ all that crap, I DO THIS FOR YOU, JUST YOU @ NO ONE ELSE. Your happiness, wisdom, @ spiritual growth are my responsibility, but you know this. This is why I am here, this is why I do what I do. I'm giving it away, whether you want it or . . . not. Cuz, you ask why?, I care. Some how, I need to reach you. My words need to touch you, to make you tingle, even. That's what I'm talkin' 'bout !!!! YOU KNOW AS WELL AS I, WE ARE CONNECTED. On a deep spiritual level, deeper than bones. I DO NEED YOU, YA KNOW?  I want you, @ I can't get enuf !!! (3eb, thanks). Right on ! 

HOW'S EVERYBODY FEELIN' NOW? 

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THE SCRIBES, Today's modern day media; 

  Circus, joke asshole-filled institution with an enormous amount of power which literally has become modern man's brain, authority on what is important, news worthy or not. These scumbags have become modern man's moral compass !!! . This kills me. 1984, by George Orwell, nailed it. His predictions about the future were right on. The blind obedience, acceptance, the absolute stupidity, ignorance in our modern day society of what is news, of what is important, what is not news worthy never never never ceases to amaze. PEOPLE CANNOT BE THIS STUPID, but albeit, however, nevertheless, furthermore(no stopping me now, for I am on a roll, ya dig?), we are. Coast to coast, Canada to Mexico, Kelsey's Crik(you'll never get it), The Stupids have inherited the earth(JESUS called them the meek). Seemingly(hachacha!), educated people have digressed to obedient puppy-dog level of existence (that, reader, is one hell of a sentence, no?). 
  Orwell published 1984 I believe in 1949, I may be wrong(been known to happen, it won't happen again), check out the movie, scary how right on he was. The people blindly obedient, reminding of the crowd at the Democratic party HQ, watching the staggering defeat of the beloved Hilary Clinton. Not knowing how to react, not knowing what to think, helpless hopelessness setting in. We as a people now speak what Orwell wrote NEWSPEAK(so right on, it is truly frightening). The NEWS, the tiny devices people cannot function without (it's a phone people !!!!), has become way too many peoples' brain, moral compass, HIGHER POWER !!! 
  The media, from day 1, are nothing but a bunch of godamm liars, spreading Grimm's Faerie Tales each @ everyday. They don't print fact. They don't spout truth. The news, so powerful now, people have become sheep, hypnotized on a mass-scale, brain-washed even, lost. They have forgotten the word of GOD a long time ago. 

  Printing truth, is that a joke? What happened to privacy for the individual @ transparency for institutions? Well, as great as that idea sounds, that idea got squashed with Julian Assange @ Wikileaks. 

Pontius Pilate, governing bodies, politicians, military might; 

   May as well throw the king in the mix, Herod (whose daddy had all babies killed upon hearing the news of the new king of Israel being born). All these people were so afraid of a man who spoke of love, forgiveness, non-violence, mercy, we are ALL brothers @ sisters. CHRIST, however, spoke truth (as opposed to news speak), and exposed all these people as frauds, crooks, cons, cheats, thieves, murderers that THEY WERE. They held the power, the army, the weapons, the evil @ ruled with an iron boot. 2000 years later, THESE SAME INSTITUTIONS HAVE NOT CHANGED ONE IOTA. THEY HAVE LEARNED NOTHING. Still believing in power, money, corruption, evil, violence on a global scale now. Spitting in the name of Christ as they did 2000 years ago. Lying all day/everyday. The wheel turns, nothing changes. AND WE SWALLOW IT AS IF IT WERE GOSPEL. 

  Orwell wrote about an eternal war, MOTHERFUCKERSONOFABITCH, he was right. We have the eternal war now, it will never end. I'm sure you've all herd 'bout the war on terror, the war that will never end. The war our political leaders (on both sides), the armies(business is booming), intelligence agencies (stepping on The U.S. Constitution all day baby), the media (scribes in Jesus's time), live breathe @ die for.   The fact of the matter is theses people work for Satan. Anyone who believes GOD/JESUS are the root cause of violence/evil, NEED TO KILL YOURSELVES. YES, IT'S TIME TO JUMP OUT A WINDOW, OR IF YOU PREFER, JUMP INTO A RIVER (God has given us free will after all). You won't be missed. 

  I would be remiss(still got baby), if I fail to mention the voters in the good ole USA, who keep electing the same assholes, bitching about the same shit, decade after decade. What we got here is failure to communicate(cool hand luke, thanks). Both sides pointing the finger at the other never, never realizing they are both 2 sides of the same coin. These meek one's exhaust me, but someone has to fight the battle of good v evil, dammit ! If not me than who? READER, help !!!
 Dems, the progs, liberals, the medias, the jack ass is their mascot (fits). Whose political philosophy is spouting Democrat good, Republican bad. NO MATTER THE ISSUE, THIS IS AS FAR AS THESE ONE'S GET. Seemingly educated people, and this level of stupidity makes me want to scream, AAAAUUUURRRRGGGGHHHH !!!! There is a mass psychosis going on here, as if brainwashed. These one's have the EXACT SAME OPINION ON EVERY SINGLE ISSUE FACING OUR SOCIETY. THIS CANNOT BE POSSIBLE, BUT IT IS !!!!  I wish I were kidding.
 Case in point - how Dems love old Republicans once they are deceased. With the recent deaths of old man Bush @ old man McCain, the VOPs(the community where i reside) upon hearing the news, eulogized both men into icons. When living, on the other hand, these Gops were loathed. Can't make this shit up. Hilarious @ pathetic at the same time. Dems didn't use the death of other human beings for political gain, did they? Get back to me on this one. Would love to hear comments. 

 Sorry, sorry, i need to control my emotions. Albeit, i am just a man, one man who every now @ then acts like one ! BOOM! 

  AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT (the Holy Grail, this movie is a mirror image of what is going on in the world all youze lives in). 

  Yeall thinkin' I'm a card carryin' member of the GOPs. WRONG kimosaby(spell check, pronounced phonetically). The Republicans, which I fondly refer to as THE MOOPS(fits, does it not?). Altho, the moops do not exist in The Windy City, nor in all of Cook County, Il. Dems have had a stranglehold on this turf forever. Progs keep bithching how things really suck cuz o' the gops, not realizing dems got the power round here @ yet they always find something to ruin there lives. Like Trump building a wall between Mexico @ the USA, which was nothing more than a lark. Or Trump @ the gops being inhuman towards immigrants trying to get into the US illegally. Forgetting the laws in regard to these matters have been on the books way before Trump got into office. Put into law by some of the very politicians they voted for !!! Furthermore, these same laws were never a problem when KING O was in power ! 
 Are ya catchin' my drift? 

  The Gops, the party with no balls. The uptight white-ass suburban party who do nothing but keep moving west. Vying to run away from every single problem instead of facing things as men, as real men. I LOVED LOVED LOVED how Trump destroyed every single leading member of this party during the debates. AND IT WAS EASY. The old Republican guard loath this man. The McCains, all the Bushs, ex-senator Kirk, Romney, the leaders of a party that for the past 20 years was nothing but a joke, dead. The same philosophy as dems, REPUBLICAN GOOD-DEMOCRAT BAD. Me, and this is just me, trying to see truth, objectively, without party affiliation, without agenda, just truth, realty, seeing all the massive BULLSHIT being shoved down peoples' throats everyfuckingday, BOTH SIDES SUCK !!!!!!! 

  Old man Bush killed the innocents in Panama. Old lady Hilary @ "O", killed the innocents in Libya. 2 sides of the same coin. BOTH SIDES ARE THE PROBLEM. Thusly, nothing ever ever ever changes. Neither being held accountable by the constituents nor the news assholes. AM I THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS COUNTRY WHO SEES THIS NONSENSE? Does that make me the last sane person on this planet? 
 Sometimes, I think I am. 

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  Our leaders, thenewsassholes, big-business, small business, all government, 2000 years ago, they were called high priests, scribes, elders, money-changers. Nothing has changed. I have a brilliant built in lie detector, I can see BS from a mile away. I can't be alone on this, can I? Most people will cling to what they hold near @ dear, value, ideas, philosophy, EGO, even when they are completely in the wrong. Clinging even to the gates of insanity @ death. I can't live that way. I need to cling to rigorous honesty, that is my salvation, my sanity in a world that is completely upside down-sideways. 

WHATEVER EVER HAPPENED TO THE PEACEKEEPERS? 

JESUS would be appalled, but not surprised. I think God is weeping. Religion @ GOD/JESUS are not the same thing. Important this, pay attention or you may miss something. 
                      
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 NOW THAT I HAVE ALIENATED the JAs(mull, it may come to you), @ the Moops, truth does sting, does it not? I have not come to condemn, but to serve, as my LORD @ SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST instructed. Fighting the battle of GOOD v EVIL can be quite taxing I must admit. Nevertheless, furthermore may I deduce, I got the time. Nothing better on my agenda today. Got nowhere else I need to be. Nothing else to do. So all yas can relax, chill, I GOT THIS THING. Til I find myself with head in hands demoralized, bewildered, terror-filled, distraught, frustrated, @ in despair. I then cry out JESUS HELP SAVE ME LORD !!!!!! AND EVERY-SINGLE TIME, HE DOES !!!!!! 
   The world becomes a much more beautiful place, with still so many beautiful people in it. There is always hope for a better tomorrow just to the extent I pray to GOD to fill my heart with HIS grace. THEN I AM FREE. Then I remember HIS GIFTS TO THE WORLD. CHRISTMAS presents that cannot be bought. That can be mine each @ everyday. IF I CHOOSE. The Lord cannot help me without my cooperation(important footnote this). If I SEEK - I SHALL FIND. IF I ASK - I SHALL RECEIVE. IF I KNOCK - THE DOOR SHALL BE OPENED. 
  Even when the awful happens, this catches up to us all eventually, I can still find something to be grateful for just as long I do not forget my faith @ trust in the LORD who has never let me down, never abandoned me, who has given me everything I need for a beautiful blessed life. GOD IS AWESOME @ JESUS IS TRULY A ROCKSTAR !!!!! The light of the world. 
  
  In the 4th DIMENSION, we make a commitment to reality, to truth, to rigorous honesty. Acknowledging the good, as well as the bad. The love/hate. Beauty/ugly. The second I ignore reality, reality begins to work against me. My plans, reality doesn't give a rat's ass about my plans. Humbly trying to stay grateful for what I have, @ not being miserable for the things I have not. In the 4th dimension, we do our best to remember the most glorious gifts one can ever obtain. For without these, life is way too difficult. My joy, happiness, welfare is my responsibility. I need to make a stand, making decisions in regards to health, peace of mind, my dreams. I can choose to live each day as if it were my last(cuz a, ya never know, do we?). How clear my priorities become. 

  Living LAST-BEST-ONLY-HOPE, we strive, work, seek, ask, believe, keeping faith, trust, cry, fall, get back up, go, on our journey from from THE DARK into THE LIGHT. The greatest gifts are mine if I choose. 

LOVE - love each other as I love you. Love of your fellow man may be the greatest love of all. I need love, be loving.

FORGIVE - Do I need to be forgiven? Endlessly. Be forgiving. 

WE ARE ALL BROTHERS @ SISTERS. WE ARE ALL CONNECTED. EVERYTHING IS CONNECTED. 

I AM NEVER ALONE - GOD/JESUS are with me always. Even in despair, HE is right there. Never not. GOD does not abandon us. We abandon HIM. 

TRUTH - I need courage to stay committed to reality. Without rigorous honesty, there is no peace, no harmony. There is madness. 
  
KEEPING FAITH - especially when the storms come, for they come for us all. Removing so much unnecessary fear. Fear can paralyze, age you, puts people in the hospital. Can stop you from doing what in your heart you know you are capable of doing. Most of our fears are a lie. 

  Without these wonderful gifts, life is way too much for me to handle. With them the world is wondrous, endlessly. Seeing the world thru the eyes of a child, I find Heaven within @ all-around me. WE ARE ALL CHILDREN OF GOD. HE wants each @ every one of us to have life more abundantly in every way, everlasting. Joyful, peaceful, beautiful, comfortable, warm, safe, healthy, loving. 

 Don't know 'bout you guys, I'm stayin' in the light. I have had my fill of the dark, thank you very much. So much of the dark has been of my own doing. Some not. I did have some help getting to the jumping off place, however, nevertheless, albeit, uponfurtherreview, needless to say @ all that other crap, NOT ME, NOT TODAY. 

LIFE CAN BE SO BEAUTIFUL IT HURTS. 

Although I am on the side of the angels, I never forget I am not one. 

                                        PEACE @ LOVE ALWAYS, FW Roman

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CHAPTER THEME SONG;  "Something In You"  by 3rd EYE BLIND 

   Musically, there is an on going internal battle for my soul. What I thought was love, I was not even close. What I thought was joy, I was not even in the ballpark. Not even close. It has taken a long time to come this, often bitter, conclusion. There is the ideal, the light we strive for, love. Failing miserably. The ideal has been THE GOO GOO DOLLS, the band I have listened to more than any other for the past 20 years. Beautiful songs, ballads, rockin', John Reznik, a great singer, writer, showman. 
  
  Then we have my reality, represented by the fabulous 3rd Eye Blind. Which showcases my life thru the sweet, melodic beauty attached to the scars within. There is  in Stephen's music, along with his popping rock-n-roll, the complete aspect of spirituality, the dark comes alongside the light, always. It's all connected. There is sorrow, madness, pain, insanity, horror, criminal, evil. However, there is a compassion, an empathy, a kindness, a warmth through out. 3eb, is the reality, is the soundtrack to my life. This is not easy for me to admit. I have caused a lot of harm. My demons haunt me. Demons of my own making. I wiped out, stepped on some of the most beautiful women I have ever known. Beautiful people who loved me. Some demons, not of my own making, have scarred me down to my bones, changed forever, I am not the same guy I used to be. 
  The songs of 3eb, expose my soul, my heart, ripping me to shreds. Nevertheless, this is the reality. I'm in exile. Knowing at the exact same time, how utterly blessed I have been @ am !!! ROCK !!!!!!!  

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 To friends, family, everybody, we are all connected. Wishing all of you a most blessed @ HAPPIEST CHRISTMAS. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. GOD/JESUS ROCK !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS !!!!!!!
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badfinger -baby blue(remastered)

 THIS KILLS ME. TOO SAD TOO TRAGIC. BUT WE ARE CONNECTED, for the good as well as the bad. I could weep. Just about my fave song when a lad 'bout 11. The story of BADFINGER, as awful as any rock tragedy, ever. To this day, even thinking about it is undeniably difficult. This is one of those. BABY BLUE, such a great pop-rock love song, one of the all-time best !! Can bring a tear to my eye, amazing. The longing, yearning, the love - brings it all back. Takes me back to the soundtrack of our lives. I saw BADFINGER once, 'bout 2005, along with THE BOX TOPS !!! Box Tops stole the show.  

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 ALBEIT_NEVERTHELESS< HOWEVER< ALAS -HOWZ EVERYBODY FEELIN' NOW?

 Now, how 'bout we have some fun !!! LOL guffawing! When was the last time you heard someone use the word guffaw? Long time, right? Well then, that would make me unique, would it not? Reader, you dammit, where in the hell are you? I need you(beatles, thanks). This one gonna be a corker(another one ha cha cha). This is what I do. I come at you like a thief in the night @ you never see me coming. And then anything could happen, I know not what, but I do know it's gonna be a blast !!! Glamorous, romantic, surreal, And you will adore me as I adore you. Loving every minute of it. Beautiful, even, knowing there is a GOD @ life is way to short to indulge in frivolity (booya!). 
  Or, I may just pull a can of silly-string on ya! @ that would make me truly unique.

  I live for nights like that. However, nevertheless, alas, albeit(enuf!), I may not have met her yet, but I will, for Jesus told me so. Ya see, me @ THE LORD have an understanding. As long as HE is calling the shots in my life, all is well, all is good, all is beautiful, even. And I have to get the out of the way! All is connected, everything, everybody.  Let GOD/JC work there magic, staying in the light where all abundance, love, beauty, joy, peace, kindness, comfort exist. 

"I AM THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD, THOSE THAT BELIEVE IN ME SHALL HAVE LIFE, MORE ABUNDANTLY, EVER LASTING"! 
Works for me. Time to shine for the best years of our lives are ahead of us. And we will rock in every sense of the word !!!

  GOD IS GOOD. JESUS IS WITH ME NOW. WE ARE NEVER ALONE. 

  And now, GO GO GO ! WE ARE about truth, reality. Spirituality is a commitment to realty after all. And this is a celebration of the best music ever, Rock-n-Roll from the era 1970-1975, perhaps the greatest era of rock ever. Though what all of us were listening to at that time, me included, is not going to be a part of this chapter-blog's latest revelation. The stuff mainstream media, FM radio played to death, @ old-farts every where still cling to. Songs @ bands that now @ since being sober(21+ years no booze-no dope !! YEEHAW !!!), really really really suck!! Bands @ music we all really dug in the 70's, but now, NOOOOOOO !!!!! Enuf, I cannot DREAM WEAVER or FLY LIKE AN EAGLE one more time! 1000 times is enuf. If I hear songs like those one more time on the FM radio dial, people will die!! Some is embarrassing(THE NOOGE). FM radio still has no clue that T-REX has more songs than BANG-a-GONG, CHRIST's SAKE! 

Time out. I need to chill. Sit in the dark, cold rag on my face, weep, call therapist.
7 hours later, Hey, I'm back. All is well. These issues get me very emotional. Most people get caught up in politics, news, sports, YOU CAN KEEP THAT NONSENSE CUZ I WANNA ROCK !!!!

   Add this to the never ending saga @ epic masterpiece series of non-literature that vows to enlighten; LAST-BEST-ONLY-HOPE - #1) GOD IS AWESOME @ Jesus is a ROCKSTAR!, #2) With The Heart Of A Child, #3) Sex-No Drugs-Rock-n-roll !! 

  @ now ladies @ gentlemen, @ junky wino creeps- drum roll, trumpets, dogs howling -LBOH - Rocked Into The 4th Dimension !! -  From the universally renowned top-notch scribe of garage writers, FW ROMAN!!! WEEEEEEEEE !!!   The crowd in a frenzy, reminding every one of the crazed days of Beatlemania! Teen-age girls weep, grown men pee themselves, women threaten violence. Gotta get out of harm's way!! look it up, I swear !! 
Welcome to the 4th dimension. 
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1970-1975; What a spectacular ere of music it was. It really never got better than this. My generation grew up with the best music, most spiritual music ever. As stated above, some has well lived out their purpose, but these bands, their songs, LPs, so remarkable they still sound brand new. Amazing stuff that never gets old, truly standing the test of time, cuz it has been a long time. @ we have lived long enuf to mull @ discuss(me still alive by the skin of my teeth but that is another chapter). I have to give a standing ovation to YOU TUBE, for helping this music stay alive so the young people can get a clue as to what people like me are talkin' 'bout. Ya ain't gonna find this on the FW radio dial. FM radio, so fucking lame I can't stand it. Not like back in our day when even AM radio rocked @ LP rock took over the FM dial. Those were the days my friends(doris day, thanks). 

  1970 - Things were changing rapidly in the rock world, The Beatles were no more, what happened next(within seconds), we quickly got over The Beatles. 

BLACK SABBATH hit like a nuclear bomb. YOU TUBE live in Paris, 1970. Sweet mother of GOD! Nothing like it to this very day. Sabbath makes Zeppelin look like sophomores. Ozzy before Prince of Darkness, was one hell of a showman @ great singer. Wearing an old beat up jacket, boots, $ store pants, no make-up, KILLER. 

THE WHO were at the height of their power. Never better than in 1970 LIVE AT LEEDS lp, or Live At The Isle Of Wight dvd. As good as rock ever got. Jaw-dropping good. 

SANTANA 1970 was as good as any band out there. Young Carlos was in his prime. Some o' ya pullin' away on this? Santana performing SOUL SACRIFICE at Woodstock stole the show. You Tube HOPE YOU ARE FEELING BETTER live 1970. Nobody was better. Just scorching, like nothing we ever heard before or since. Brilliant. 

GRAND FUNK RAILROAD, stop while I weep. America's answer to the 2nd British Invasion.  You Tube INSIDE LOOKING OUT, live 1972 MSG. May very well be the greatest performance captured on film ever, ever! No? Go, go now @ listen, RnR was never better. FM radio never heard of this song. A disgrace, a travesty(ok I'll stop). 

RARE EARTH, so very rare indeed. Cannot remember last time I heard Get READY or I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU on FM radio(sucks). Do yourself a favor, go You Tube these 2 songs, you will thank me. Still brand new, awesome! Get up dance @ shout! 

T. REX, stop, I am weeping. Marc Bolan, the epitome of ROCKSTAR! We lost him long time ago, a tragedy, way too sad. The lp ELECTRIC WARRIOR was in our possession at 11. Loved it then, love it more now. You Tube GIRL, live. Beautiful. (I want that jacket he's wearin'. Santa, you feelin' me?) READER, this one is for you. This gets me so emotional, striking my nerve endings, soul, heart WOW! What a band. 

BADFINGER, listening to theses guys age 10. Produced by the Beatles. They had it all. Pop-rock love songs at it's finest. Reader, You Tube BABY BLUE, this one for you. Makes me want to hold you @ never let you go! 

CAT STEVENS, TEA FOR THE TILLER MAN -(enjoyin' a spot of earl grey as we speak. Earl Grey, there is no substitute. Ahhh, that's a slice o heaven in a cup). We played the hell out of this one. So many, too many never on the FM radio. Great singer, song writer. Touching heart felt songs. Cat is in the Rock-n-Roll Hall of Fame as he should be. 

ELTON JOHN - but not what you think. Before he became Captain Fantastic, You Tube BBC 1971 live. Madman Across The Water, Indian Sunset, Mona Lisa @ Madhatters - Musical genius performing with a drummer @ bass player, that's it, 2 other guys. Now, Elton performs with a freakin' orchestra! Never better.  

ALICE COOPER - 18, No More Mr. Nice Guy, School's Out, Elected, Billion Dollar Babies. Great clean rock-n-roll. Give it to them, great stuff. 

THE ROLLING STONES - hang on. Don't get your undies in a jumble! 71-76, the Mick Taylor years, Stones at their very finest. Their best songs are Never, fucking never on the radio. Nor do they play them in concert. My fave Stone's song ever, WINTER(Goat's Head Soup). Reader this is most emphatically for you!!! Beautiful 

WE ARE NOW ENTERING 1974, which may in fact, indeed, be the single greatest year in rock history, or there abouts. Fasten your seat belt reader, hold tight, I got you now, you feelin' me? Cuz I'm feelin' you!  I AM NEVER GONNA LET YOU GO, EVER !!! 

AC-DC - with their debut lp. Has it been that long ago. Great band, great sound, great musicians, they do not get old. An amazing career. Working @ playing thru tragedy, not to be denied, a force of nature. Angus Young may very well be the COOLEST DUDE EVER!! 

UFO - The coolest fans ever. If you dug UFO, you were probably very cool. Had to be or you wouldn't even know they existed. Hard-rock, ballads, Michael Schenker - UFO had it all !! As good as rock ever got. STRANGERS IN THE NIGHT -did live LP's get better? NO

RUSH - Debuted in '74? Really? This band from across the border hit the rock world with a hammer in '74. When 2112 hit, nothing was ever the same. Brilliant, genius, 3 guys sound like a 100. A remarkable career. 

JUDAS PRIEST - yeah '74. Ok all you heavy metal freaks, I had there 1st LP. 12 years old. WOW! They sounded like Sabbath. An incredibly long career.(no, i have never worn leather pants, no tatts, no studs embedded in any body part, thank you). 

BLUE OYSTER CULT - you believe this shit? BOC playin' since 1974! Unbelievable. You Tube ASTRONOMY, studio or live. Amazing stuff. Like nothing we never heard cuz FM radio is to goddam lame! A beautiful song, melodic, great singer, and they hit it !! OUTTHEPARK! One o' my fave songs ever! You Tube Astonomy live '74, check out what lead singer is wearin'. Reader, can I make it work? Do I have the right stuff? Bring that fashion back !! I'm ready.

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Wow, that was knee deep intensive writing @ research. But this not about me, no no no. Honestly, that era as good or better, or the best 5 years in rock history! We were so blessed. Young people have no clue. The crap on FM radio, mainstream cable TV internets SUCKS !!!!!!!! Thank GOD for You Tube. Take ya right back to a golden age with nothing but the fondest memories of beautiful friends, neighbors. It was all so Beaver Cleaver, right? If you were there, we can leave out the details. 

POINT; - We have a point!! Bands that did not make the list, do not stand the test of time(SORRY-gonna piss some people off here, but nevertheless, albeit furthermore @ on that note, you are WRONG!), but were hugely popular at the time before they started crapping @ embarrassing themselves past their prime @ FM radio beat them to death, still, to this very day. Stuff that make ya want to vomit, jump out a window, smash radio with a hammer(ya know, normal everyday stuff). 

I feel some o ya pullin' away already - bands that were playing during the specified era @ died. 
LED ZEPPELIN
YES
JETHRO TULL
EMERSON, LAKE, @ PALMER
DEEP PURPLE
PINK FLOYD
ROD STEWART
BOB SEGER
THE NOOG
STEVE MILLER
embarrassing is it not? At the time yeah great but not no more. 

This has been a great trip down memory lane into the 4th dimension, cuz OUT HERE IN THE PERIMETER, THERE ARE NO STARS. OUT HERE WE (ain't)STONED, IMMACULATE! Thank you to the Lizard King. Reader, all for you. Enjoy, rock, love, laugh, dance !! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. Soon, very soon, til then, be safe, come home, WE ARE ALL, CONNECTED, STILL, forever. 

                                                         Peace @ love,  FW 

Grand Funk Railroad - Bad Time (1975) HQ

  THE GODDESSES(pt.2) - 1975, Music, Platform Shoes!

 Amazing. The flashbacks out of nowhere from the dark cesspool of my memory banks. The entangled mess I must sift thru to get to he truth. A demo job is what it is. Thank God minimum evasive surgery is not needed. At least in my expert professional opinion on mental health issues. For I, yes it is I, me reader, FW, his bad self. Never needing a lobotomy. Tho I have an associate,or 2, that have been zapped @ to this day they are fine. They are fine. They are fine. Not me daddy. No no no, you got the wrong guy. I was not there. Tho there are times I feel beside myself @ then, if I am beside myself, who am I ? Enuf meandering(not bad) already. We got stuff that needs mulling @ discussion. Tho this is hardly a 2 way convo, is it? WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE ZAP ME ALREADY !!! Or, as Jadwiga would do, slap me upside the head just to get me back on track, back on track, back on track. 

I MISS YOU MOMMY. To this day, I still need you to take care of me. If not you than who? I in trouble, me thinks. I remember singing this very song to my mom back in '75, 7th grade, @ "BAD TIME", by the great GRAND FUNK RAILROAD, was a smash hit song. Chick-music pop-rock at it's finest, heart-breaking even, but so cool, so hip. It did not get much better, ever.
 Sadly, this song became the theme song to my life, my romantic life that is. A precursor(good there), a foreshadowing that exists to this very day. TO THIS VERY FUCKING DAY, goddammit !   

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THE GRAND FUNK RAILROAD not in the Rock-n-Roll Hall of Fame, you have got to be kidding. How in the . . . is this band not in the HOF?? Somebody, help me here. Farris, you out there? A gross injustice is what it is. Who the hell votes on this anyways? Get your shit together voters @ do the decent thing, the right thing, the good thing. Honest to GOD!! GFR, 70-75, as good a band out there. They killed it!! Mark Farner, an amazing singer, guitarist, @ phenomenal showman. YOUTUBE "Inside Looking Out", live 1972 MSG. Get back to me. Case closed, done, they are in. This is as good as RnR ever got. OUTTHEPARKKILLER. Makes me want to stand up, dance, scream shout it out loud, YEAHHHHH !!!! This one never gets old. Rockin' to this when we was 'bout 12 years old, WE WERE SO FREAKIN' cool !!!  
  Alas, albeit, nevertheless @ perhaps that's just me, but I doubt it. 

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 1975 - the flashbacks, the memories being jarred, stuff @ peeps I ain't thought 'bout in long long time, decades. WE had a blast !!!! A blessed childhood most certainly. 
1970-1975, an incredible era in music, perhaps the greatest in ROCK history. Get back to that later. 

  PLATFORM SHOES -  Holy Christ !!! I LOVED PLATFORM SHOES !!! Admit it, so did you. The coolest goddam things ever, ever, ever !!! @ bell-bottom jeans !!!!! Chicks dug it. The cool kats struttin' this stuff, we were studs !! At least we thought so. LONG HAIR !!!! Dam right long hair !! Down to the shoulders @ past. Smokin' hot, can't touch this, no ! If I still had enuf hair(56 shhh),  I would still have hair to mid-back @ never cut it!! CROSBY, STILLS, NASH, @ YOUNG -"Almost Cut My Hair" was the anthem. Loved long hair. I think for me it started with David Cassidy, The Partridge Family, The dude had the coolest hair @ got all the chicks !!!
 NOTE TO SELF- bring back the word FOX, as in SHE's A FOX !!!!

I often shop at antique stores, tho I live in the VOP, I swear I am not gay !!!! Gotta find a pair of platform shoes. Bring 'um back. I am ready. I think I could pull it off. Reader, You, yes you, what you think? Do I have the right stuff? Do I still have IT? Am I cool enuf, hip enuf? Do I still have the ass to look good in my skinny jeans? Need your advice here. Ladies, chicks, foxes, what you think? I am 56 years old @ can still bring it !!! 
   (Hang on, i gotta pee. My prostate is acting up). 

 WOMEN'S fashion during the 1970s was the best ever. The clothes, the hair styles, the shoes, the dresses, halter-tops(oh man), hot pants(fever). Had it all. SPECTACULAR, SEXY HOT WICKED! We rocked, danced, partied - LIFE WAS GOOD !!!!!  

 AND SWEET MOTHER OF GOD, 1975, THE GODDESSES(pt.2) - 

  The synapses, receptors firing. Slowly, however, nevertheless, memories lost @ found again. Being a healthy spry teen-age man about town, I was unbelievably surrounded by the most smokin' babes ever in my life !!!! AND I MEAN EVER !!! They were all so cute @ adorable as kids. I watched in amazement as they grew into the coolest teenagers ever. @ was in awe watching them become some of the most beautiful women I had the blessed fortune of being around. These women were spectacular !! Honest to GOD ! Something in the water at IRVING SCHOOL circa 1975. Never in my entire life have I been surrounded by so many foxes, ever. Not high school nor college could come close to this glorious group of females the good lord brought to this small area. One after the next. I gave a quick list of names couple a blogs ago, all off the top of my head(took 'bout a minute). Upon further review I would be remiss, it would be a travesty of justice, not to name these wonders of the female human race-(Karen C., Cara W., Mindy H., Missy H., Millie N., Eve D., Frannie S., Lori A.- that took 30 seconds). 
   YES, there is a GOD !!!!!!!!!! 
The guys were champions - the girls were goddesses.  IRVING SCHOOL CLASS OF 1975 WINS, THEY ARE THE GOATS!(Greatest of all-time). 

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 They are the ideal I have had to live with for the rest of my life. It has not been easy. I mean, what could compare to that? South Berwyn, Il., Irving School 1975 ? NOTHING !!! To live up to that ideal has been impossible for the rest of the women on this planet. It's tough peaking at age 14 !!! Nevertheless, IT WAS A BLAST-A GAS GAS GAS !!! THE MOST SMOKIN' HOT, SEXIEST COOL HIPPEST BEAUTIFUL FOXES CHICKS WOMEN, EVER !!!! 

  GOD BLESS EACH @ EVERY ONE OF YOU!!  

You ruined me for life. 56, single, most certainly, not a coincidence. As I stated, still connected.  

  It's good to reflect every now @ then, reminds me of who I am. Those memories, those people, a blessed childhood. I wouldn't change a thing. We are all still connected, entwined. Those days are, all those many years ago, still, to this day a part of who I am today. The essence of spirituality, connected, together, I AM NEVER ALONE. The world is still a beautiful place, with beautiful people in it. Those people, those days, those women, I HAVE BEEN THE MOST BLESSED MAN ON THIS PLANET. !!! 

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 Holidays around the corner. I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS !!! Thanksgiving, I am so blessed. The people I love @ people who love me. I HAVE NOT LOVED ENOUGH. However, I am trying to do better on that one. And I will be. I so love Christmas ! I dig shopping, buying gifts, wrapping, the lights, the music, decorating x-mas trees, dinner parties. Throwing old ladies @ handicapped into  snowbanks(KIDDING, a joke all-right).  THERE IS A SANTA CLAUS !!!! 
 Celebrating the birth of JESUS CHRIST ! Such a beautiful time of year ! Current friends, past friends, @ friends yet to come. I still look forward to the future with hope, with love, with joy. Staying in the light, WE ARE ALL CONNECTED. The best years of our lives are ahead of us !! 

                               Peace @ love always, ROCK !!! 
                                                                                    FW Roman 

Third Eye Blind - Slow Motion (101.9 KINK)

 MY LETTER of RESIGNATION @ (the Snakeskin Cowboy); - WARNING- this one is not nice, but alas, ontheotherhand, albeit, nevertheless, however it is real. And on that note YIPPEEKAYEEMOTHERFUCKER !! (Bruce Willis). GO GO GO !! WEEEE !! That's what I'm talkin' 'bout! 

  DO NOT LET THE BAD GUYS WIN! "Altho i am on the side of the angels, i know i am not one". It's better this way, easier. Cuts thru the BS of the world. BS is at epidemic proportion. It seems the assholes are winning, we cannot allow the jackasses to win. Can't allow the JA's to get us down. The godless heathen, the meek, the infidel who go out of their way to be assholes. As if the world isn't difficult enough to get by in, these MFers need to be assholes @ why? Cuz they can, cuz they are, cuz they are stupid, full of self-pity in their insignificant minds @ lives needing attention knowing no other way to get it. If you need to prove your intellect, you are not. If you need to prove you are cool, you are not. If you need to prove you are a ladies man, you are a loser with a ton of secrets. The loudest person in the room is the weakest(Denzel Washington). 

  We all know DFs like this, (be it family, friends, neighbors, kids, bosses,- the list is endless). It is time to stop eating other people's shit cuz we are afraid to speak our minds, cause more trouble, get fired, whatever @ every time I cut people slack giving the benefit of doubt, I FUCKING REGRET IT. Honestly this was how I was raised @ I've learned it was wrong then, it is wrong now. Some people, we just have to say fuck off cuz nothing else get to their pee brains. When has the latest jackass cut you some slack, give you the benefit  of doubt? NEVER, that's when. 

  Change me, not them. Pray for them, then tell them to jump into a river. Time to stand up for yourself, you will never regret it. Sleep better, heart is lighter, less burdened. Do not give up on yourself. Do the next right thing for you cuz you can. We are better than that, as GOD intended, do not allow the opinions of others drown out your own inner voice. We are all children of GOD, worthy, valuable human beings, important to a lot of people, we can have great self-esteem @ healthy self-confidence. 

NOBODY EVER HAS THE RIGHT TO ABUSE SOMEONE EVER !!What ever form that may take. If you have to fight back, Fuck 'em. Tolerance does not reach the pee-brain.  

"THOSE THAT SEEK THE TRUTH @ FIND IT, SHALL HEAR MY VOICE"(straight from the top, my Lord @ savior Jesus Christ. how powerful this is). 

  Snakeskin Cowboy - No real identities here but this as a nickname fits like a glove. This old song(40+ years) sung by Ted Nugent, whose career as a rockstar ended at the same time. I mean embarrassing himself as the great white buffalo in his hip-hop loin cloth trying to sound like a brother. Is there anything more pathetic then a white guy trying to sound like an African American? We all know some. It's ridiculous. And this song, reader, I mean come on, disco era urban cowboys, tight jeans, snappy hats, I'm not sayin', I'm just sayin'. Heard this live version recently, Ted needs to kill himself. And if you are still a fan, end it, kill yourself. You've lost all dignity, honor, respect, your masculinity @ balls are gone. And when The NOOG says, "bend over rover, let Teddy take over", he ain't singin' bout women !!!! Effeminate, snappy, spittin' tabacky, happy. Teddy ain't singin' bout women. This is as embarrassing as it gets. 

  I'm thinkin' this is makin' some middle-aged white-suburban men out there uncomfortable, squimish, squirming in their drawrs, rethinkin' their own masculinity perhaps? Cat's out the bag now ! OOPS !! You can run but the truth always comes out. 

MY LETTER OF RESIGNATION -(10-19-18);

  Dear Snakeskin Cowboy; -This is your job evaluation. You are the most miserable prick I have ever worked with. Impossible to have a good day cuz you go out of your way to be an asshole @ all I do is bust my ass. You create problems @ confusion, why? The job is hard enough, 4-5 hour commutes and you go out of you way being a jackass. Wheaton, holy fuck! You could not be a bigger prick. But that is who you are, true colors. Your estimate, giving her everything @ you scream @ threaten to desert me in Wheaton, FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU. Who taught you that is ok? I hope it happens again, honestly. You consider yourself honest @ spiritual? When did it become ok to disclose personal, private information to other staff members(pumpkin greg, richie). And your sarcasm about drinking, my advice call me, 1st drink is on me, anytime. Go smoke some grass while you are at it. You are good @ sane. I stopped full- disclosure with you over 2 years ago. And take your pathetic attitude about women @ sex somewhere else. Call Eddie or Pete, I'm sure they would be glad to hear about MILFs, HOLY FUCK! I WILL NEVER RIDE WITH YOU TO ANOTHER JOB. YOU DON'T PAY ME ENOUGH TO LISTEN TO YOU TALK. Enjoy the weekend, love to your wife. 

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 Verbatum people. You think I got my points across? Was I vague or possibly too direct? Any comments are welcome. To those who are in my shoes, use this as a template, might be good for you too. I have no regrets, this jackass is lucky he still has his testicles. But then again, no balls @ stupidity go together. 3 years with this piece of dung, no regrets. I would do it again, no hesitation. All is well with new outfit. GOD is good. Life so rocks. Change is in the air all this year. I'm feeling good, optimistic, hopeful. The world is still a beautiful place @ worth fighting for. Reader, all for you. I love you miss you cannot wait to see you !!!

 Til then, WE ARE ALL CONNECTED, ENTWINED, WELCOME TO THE 4th DIMENSION !! Peace @ love,  FW 

Chapter Theme Song;     - SLOW MOTION by the great 3eb

  This solo acoustic performance by the greatest rockstar on this or any other planet, Stephen Jenkins. There are 4 different versions of this song, all are remarkable. This one, Jesus, this is incredibly dark but beautiful all at the same time. Hypnotic, mesmerizing, jaw-dropping, stunning, leaves me speechless. Stephen is a genius. 3eb, best concert I ever saw, best band in the world. I AM ADDICTED TO 3EB !!!

 Furthermore(hachacha!), love to YOUTUBE, greatest invention this side of modern plumbing !!!!